and wen u feel sad u have no want to turn to. just onlie keep it dissapear all in urself. cos, this is my bloody fate. ye knw, wen first u have a parent u can never turn to cos they keep treating u like a small kid that never grows up..i wished i have parents like others have..supportive understanding and easy going.but i knw, it wud never happen. im fated to be lonely forever. forever. i pity myself alot.a lesson learnt .. in future, i will never be like my parents. i swear. swear. i wished i had a beutiful life, i knw i wun, i cant even spell that word. i dun knw why they always say we shud thank our parents cos if they're not here, we wud not be here, but wen we dun even want to be in this cruel world. and wen they dun even know how to make us happie... im so sad, ive always been sad.
they are always like that, home is like a jail. bored. trapped. im a grown up, i want to be treated like one. this is life, not somwhere where there is no entity happening, n the most important thing, its MY life. i made every decision. every single thing to where every part of my life happens.
i wished God knows how unhappie i am, even if he knws,will he help? im never perfect, nobody is.
everyone makes a mistake, and they repent. everyone goes thru experience, and they understand the world better. but i will always remain, the same. lonely,unapreciated and pitied.
no one likes to see me happy ryte.. i knw. nobody cares. at all. and i am hopeless, pathetic and trash. just that, i can never be the lady i dreamt to be, cos im fated to be like that. im sick of it.
but i knw, there is no way out. i have never seen anyone with the same problem as me, ami a jinx? OH. maybe. why?

locked, trapped and the abscence of happiness, its silently dying.
and no one is there to help. nobody.

alone.