hye, 5:19, saturday.

and im watchin tv, listenig to music and blogging. multi-tasking.
blog about wad? blog about being sick laa..! yesterday, wen for the cross country and i brought back home muscle pains with me. haiz. and i m so confused.and i am always thinking, making a conclusion and predicting. everything that is happening now is so wrong, do i deserve this haa?
wad bloody mistake i do la? why is it wen i be nice, im not treated nice? its not tryng to mean i be nice to be treated nice, but i just dun understand why i be nice for??
i curse feelings for everything, why shud there be feelings? ha? wah hell men, get away..! i know im brought up being a loner. forever. u know la. a pathetic, worthless thing.
and u wud never be interested in reading my blog cos its always about sad stuffs that people like u never care about, but stil its my blog, and im going to keep typing but it.each n every single feelings, every single action.
lyfe ,life i mean. has never made me happpie, it always concludes in a half smile, a smile of smurk. it mocks me, swearing im never deserving a fullest laughter. my dreams will always be my dreams. as i grow n learn, being nice is the very best way to solve every problem we have..
like for example, mahatma gandhi. he is one of my million idols, u heard of his story? its a beatiful lyfe story. i was moved. but do u think being nice like him cud be trusted to work now? with watever happening now, this gnrtion i mean..?no. i give up. let it be already. i promise to never be nice no more.

n still, i live the fullest in my dreams, u can never imagine how enchanted those dreams were.
every single thing is bout a smile. a curve that sets everything straight, =)
i still wait for u. u just dun understand. cos u will never.



ielwvT. ^-^